It has been a long time, almost a year, since I posted anything. So much has changed since then. So much.
I closed my practice in Cambridge, MA. My husband and I packed up our apartment, two kids, and two cats. We moved 1,500 miles. I reopened my practice in Pensacola, FL and that’s only half of it.
I still don’t know how to restart my blog but my mantra for everything these days is “just start.”
So, here I am, just starting. I am just sitting down and writing. No thought beyond that.
Hmm, what to say?
Well, things are different now. I feel different. I am in a different place physically and emotionally….and I am sooooooo very happy. We took this risk, my family and I and things are moving in a good direction.
2015 is going to be a good year. I’m ready. Let’s do this.
My last post was about feeling crazy. Can you tell that things are getting to me? I always wonder whether I should put myself out there like that but then I think “What the hell? Nothing wrong with being honest.”
However, I don’t want to send the message that there is no answer. There is. For as terrible as mental illness, be it temporary, cyclic, seasonal, or permanent, there is always help and always hope.
The tools available are endless but let me share the most powerful one I have. My greatest tool is the thought “There is no other choice but to be ok.”
There has never been an obstacle that has stayed an obstacle. There has never been a situation that is unendingly painful. Everything either ends or changes and there is hope and peace in that fact.
The desire to use an ED behavior passes. The baby stops screaming. The sun does come out. It might take months for these things to happen, but it does.
Change, unaided by my intervention, is something I trust, unequivocally. It is my greatest strength…and I have no influence on it! It’s great. There is nothing I can do to screw it up. It will happen with or without me. It’s a huge relief.
I should thank my bestie, Cat Jones Loveless, for that lesson. Thank you, sis! I would be very anxious and lost with out you and your truisms!
What is your greatest tool? What is your best thought?